Beware the journal is big!!!
BUMPING

needs cash so she asked me to bump her xD she told me she'd kill me if I didn't and I value my like so GO COMMISSION HER! she's cheap!! XD gawd this sounded wrong xDDD *runs away*
anyone else need bumping send me a msg I'll add you here <3News about ME
That job I was talking about ...I didn't get to work on the exam so it's out of the question , although I may still have a chance if I talk to them, will call them in the morning and explain that I didn't have time to work on it cuz of personal reasons and maybe I'm in luck. I really need the job and really want it so keep your fingers crossed as they say and wish me luck I need it TT^TT
On Saturday after first day of Nijikon ended I went to Spring Time (fast food) with Shin and I met some of my old neighbors there I was in shock and so thrilled I got all hyper and wasn't able to make sense when speaking xDD I moved from there for 6 years now and I really miss my friends TT^TT and today I got an offline message from an old best friend of mine from the same neighborhood saying that she dreamed of me and started missing me and that she wants us to meet TT^TT made my day shine seriously !
Now not to bore you too much I'll just say this I'll bee on a hiatus for one more week (as in I won't be able to draw anything but I'll be here to read messages and stuff) then I'll start working on my art trades commissions if I get any collabs and whatever else I have.
Orders for commissions may be placed through note starting today , But I'll start working on them next week.
Besides that if you want to read about how nijikon went read the lower part xD it's big xD
So see ya guys around <3 And thanks a lot for all your support!!!
And thanks so much for the new watchers >.<
Yes I'm opening commissions. just chibi commissions cuz well I don't have time for normal anime style atm. And I still need cash.
More info about commissions here since this journal's already getting too crowded
[link]Was somewhat of a success although I expected more , anyway making double out of what I invested is good even if I invested little this year XD. It was good cuz I was able to give back some of the loans I had , I still have a few but meh I need to buy shoes and a jacket so I dunno If I'll pay those soon. Or if I start commissions or online ordering for nijikon leftovers and actually get orders I'll pay my debts now and buy shoes and jacket later XD.
Anyway , besides me getting ill in the first day of Nijikon and throwing up and having a big headache in both days all day I should say I liked it. I learned new things on what to do and I know now that next year , mara , I'll steal your idea since I noticed it works better ( to mara: sper ca nu te-ai suparat ca am facut si io u kno' wut >_>''' you seemed overwhelmed as it was XD)
I cosplayed as a maid again since I didn't have time to make my reno outfit and I noticed there was a reno there so I didn't feel bad xDD cuz he looked ok from a far xD (didn't get to see him close up) one thing that bugged me was his tail!!! IT SUCKED!!! come on! I would have cut my tail and give it to him if if I only had a scissor with me >_> his tail ruined everything! xD then there was a zack which looked ok then I saw some girls as claymore but duuuuude using foil as the metal part of the outfit SUCKED! I liked the DGM cosplayers , they actually made good costumes this year <3 Millenium Earl was the best! Also liked lavi kanda allen and lenalee. krouri and the others not so great the costumes were still good tho'
Besides that it bugged me that the cosplayers were barely visible ...mostly before the contest , but after it was like all of them vanished >.< which sucked! WHY THE FUCK DO YOU COSPLAY? just for the freakin' contest? geez....cosplaying is not just about the contest heck I don't even want to ever participate in one. Tho' my cousin insists that we participate next year xD BWAHAAHAHAHAHA I BRAINWASHED MY COUSIN INTO AN OTAKU!!! XDDD It's scarry how I manage to attract people to this side xDDDD
Overall nijikon was ok, except there were a lot lesser people than last year which disappointed me , I didn't see many of my friends and it sucked. But it had good parts as well , it improved. The fact that they changed the place of artist alley on the right wing was a definite plus , there was more light and we were able to draw better xD . They also added music all over the place which again is a plus because it livens up the place

Added clubs in the community section (J-Pop club) I hope to see more clubs next time!! The gaming section added in the base floor bonus again cuz that area was empty last year and it looked better like this , gaming was also at the first floor but more games is always a plus xD
I WANT GUITAR HEROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO AND DRUMS AND A GUITAR AND AND OH GOD I'm OBSESSED XD
Oh but my obsession for drumms was old but recently wanted to take drum lessons then seeing drums at nijikon and playing on them I was like OMFG I WANT! xD
Overall I had a good time ...again exception when I was sick when I pucked xD and when I had huge headaches XDD will stop now xD it's getting too big xD
Umm sorry for the update , but I wanted to mention I blocked the dude and he keeps sending me replies to the last message I sent him back when he hid them he unhid itso here it is with translation and everything :
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"Per favorire si, ma per commentare no. Ho solo commentato sui giornali che IO ho scritto.
E si è vero che l'ultimo disegno tuo che ho commentato è questo [link] è da molto tempo , ma almeno io ho commentato. (Ho visto una cosa , sul disegno di Chi ti ho lasciato un commento ma non mi hai risposto non ti ha piaciuto che ho detto che qualcosa sembrava "sbagliato"?) eh non importa l'idea è che io ho commentato per un tempo anche ho favorito qualche dei tuoi disegni ma tu simo ? nemmeno questo. Se non ti piaceva come disegnavo per che mi hai aggiunto nella tua lista? Se aspetti da uno qualcosa devi essere preparato a fare lo stesso per lui. Ho fatto con te che ho fatto con tutti quelli che ,come hai detto tu, mi "hanno dimenticato". Non hai fatto niente per tenermi interessata. Sei stato pensando solamente a tua persona che tu ricevi commenti, che tu impari ,che tu ricevi favoriti, watch etc . Sei esattamente che dici nei tuoi giornali. A me non m'interessa questo ma se non vedo un ragione per mantenerti nella mia lista ti rimuovo e basta. Questa l'ho fatto.
Ti hai spiegato perfettamente , mi ha aiutato a vedere quale è la tua personalità . E basta cosi. spero che tu hai capito che ho detto , il mio italiano non è molto bono, e non ho parlato con nessuno da molto tempo e ho dimenticato.
Translation:" To favorite yes but to comment no. I only replied to comments to MY OWN journals.
And yes it's true the last drawing of yours that I've commented on is this one [nolink sry] , its old, but at least I commented. (I saw one thing , in the drawing of Chi I left you a comment but you never replied you didn't like the fact that I said something seemed wrong?) eh it doesn't matter , the idea is I commented for a while and I even faved some of your drawings but you simo? not even this. If you didn't like how I was drawing then why did you add me to your watchlist? IF you expect something from someone you have to be prepared to do the same for him. I did with you what I did with all that , how you said "forgot about me"(don't act like you forgot about DRE! XD) You didn't do anything to keep me interested , you were thinking only about yourself , that you get comments that you improve , that you receive favorites , but if I don't see a reason to keep you in my list I remove you and that's it.I did that.
You explained youself perfectly . It helped me see what your true personality is. And that's the end of it. I hope you understood what I said , my italian isn;t that good . and I didnt speak with anyone for a long time so I forgot.- I even apologized if I made mistakes in writing! HA! xDDD
his first:
"Allora rispondo in inglese, se riesco:
Why i didn't answer:
I think it is horrible to make lists of your preferred friends, excluding me, when i was always kind and polite.
In my opinion being honest means to add everyone or nobody.
That's why i stopped to follow you.
If you was interested on mantaining friendship (? well, i'm exaggerated now) you had to note me to ask why. ^^ But you preferred to ignore me and then to remove me, so you didn't care so much.
Then, if there was to feature someone, it was not me, but only your preferred friends. And now don't say i didn't feature you!!!
Then, i'm not interested what is you hopinion about me, i know what i am, and stats says the truth^^ When i post a drawing if it is really bad time, i reach 200-300 views, when it is good time i reach 5000 views^^ So...
"Stop" it is what i say now, i have enough elements to give a good example of "Category A user"."
Second:
"Tsk. Che persona
Translation:" "Tsc. what a person
Third:
"Una persona che ho sempre trattato con gentilezza come si fa con gli amici, che ringrazia facendo notare che sulle sue liste non ci sei. Che frequenta persone che hanno il coraggio di dirmi in faccia: "io non ti considero amico". Pero' i complimenti vi piacevano."
Translation:" " A person who I've always treated with kindness how it's done with friends, who thanks me making sure that I'm not in their list.Who attends people who have the courage of telling me in my face " I don't consider you a friend" But you enjoyed the compliments." -WTF ? what compliments you ingrate? you never commented on my works!!
Fourth as a reply to his own second msg:
"che poi, chiede soldi per i disegni... come è possibile non vergognarsi?
E si lamentano se venendo in Italia, le loro lauree non valgono nulla. Con l'istruzione che hanno avuto ci credo."
Translation:" " who after asks for money for drawings... how is it possible you're not ashamed? And they lament if coming in italy , their skills non value anything. With the practice they had it doesn't surprise me."
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He's getting on my nerves , first he blocks me then he unblocks me and keeps sending me replies although I don't answer? further more is he for real? He's making me sound like it's illegal to ask for money if someone wants a drawing only for themselves made by me. I didn't know it's a crime to ask for money for your hard work...he's really picking a fight with me isn't he? . This guy needs a medic
Should I report him? although it won't solve anything ?
AND WHY ISN'T THE DAMN BLOCK METHOD WORKING? I blocked him immediately after I wrote the journal now why isn't it functioning? What should I do?
I don't know how to make him shut up I'll either explode and start to swear or report him for not leaving me alone. If he replies one more time I'm reporting him. And he's not blocked from my page ! That pisses me off the most. I think I'll go report him now and report a bug with the block list as well....it's no use getting mad over a total idiot!
[END UPDATE]
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I have to post this and get people's opinions not gonna give out a name but I need to see if I'm the one who's wrong or this person is.
The whole conversation was quite pointless but it made me mad , because what he said was so untrue. HE was the one who never commented or faved a single work of mine and yet he complained for me removing him from my watch list.And making me sound like such an evil person it makes me mad...
Since he blocked me I'll post just the note and the last reply he gave me and try to explain the rest.
First I got this note :
"Thanks for removing me. I was sure you're not really interested in what i draw, and that's the proof! So you taken the right decision. In my page (as you don't know) there is explained why i decided to remove watchers. If you're curious, there is a link in my journal. I suggest to read it, so you can learn what means to "watch" someone. If you don't care, no problem. Please don't answer because i'll delete every note ^^
It was good to speak to you and to exchange comments and ideas (sarcastic), good luck^^ "
guess what , I removed him because ever since he added me and I did the same thing although I admit I wasn't interested in his works I was just polite and from time to time he posted something that I liked and faved or commented but that was a long time ago , recently he had nothing that interested me , I didn't have time to comment or critique as mostly all of you know so since he NEVER since he added me commented I presumed he removed me so it's ok for me to remove him since he was filling up my message center with no purpose.And yes I do remove people from my watch list if after a long time they don't post anything that interests me. and since he said he didn't watch me just to make friends means that he didn't consider me a friend and well I'm a sucker cuz at the time I did him... oh well. Anyway, I removed him and now he sent me the note (shortly after I removed him).
Anyway so I went to his page and wrote this :
"Rispondo perche non mi piace quando si dicono cosi di me e perche non mi piace lasciarti con questa impressione .Sono due motivi perche ti ho "discostato" da watch 1) non ho tempo per aiutare ai altri con >>critique<< non so se hai histo mai io sono stata inactiva recentamente, e anche io non sono la persona che puo dire ad un altro dove ha errori etc... anch'io ho molto ad imparare 2)non abbiamo parlato... nemeno "ciao" ...da secole e mi scusi ma se non parliamo che motivo rimane?
Sarra un altra cosa che vorei dire ma ....sinceramente non credo che ti interesa."
Translation:
"I'm replying here because I don't like it when people say things about me and I don't want to leave you with this impression(about me) There are two reasons for which I removed you from my watch 1)I don't have the time to help others with critique I don't know if you noticed but I've been inactive on DA recently, also I'm not the person who can tell others where they make mistakes etc... even I have a lot to improve (my italian is retarded so some sentences are limited xD) 2)we havent talked ...not even "hello"... in ages and excuse me but if we don't talk what reason remains?
There was another thing I wanted to say but ....sincerely I don't think it interests you."
Then after writing this I re-read his note and it made me mad. and replied this through note:
"I didn't want to comment about this in your journal or anyplace else but re-reading your note made me angry.
you're such a hypocrite! The way you say it as if you ever commented on any of my pictures! you're nothing but egoistic you want critique and comments from others but when did you give back? I removed you because I was too busy to try and take care of the people I watch and comment I barely had time for myself I only come online and look at art that's all I don't comment I don't do anything. Anyway , I don't care if you care I'm still saying it I barely removed you (had all your deviations in my list and saw them)surprisingly you notice fast .
I wonder how can you be sarcastic when you didn't help maintain this "friendship" you're not the only one I removed so get over it you didn't do anything to keep me interested and I didn't have time to keep you interested so it's not only my fault here it's yours too. Remove me from your watch(you probably already did that) and that's it life goes on.
One last note , expecting someone will watch you back when you watch them is stupid from my point of view they watch you if they're interested not because you expect it.
And no I'm not bothering to write it in italian although I'm sure you'll misunderstand most of what I said .
Have a nice life and I don't care if you didn't read which I'm sure you did. I wrote it to get my anger out."
I was pissed off and yes he did read the note I saw xDD
Continuing he answered me this :
"I problemi ci sono perché non sapete gestire le cose come andrebbe fatto. Oppure non vi interessa.
Prima rispondo:
1) Ma per favorire o commentare chi vuoi sì ^^ O adesso oppure nel passato, non cambia molto. Lo dico a te perché sto scrivendo a te, ma quello che penso lo penso per tutti, io sono fair (o imparziale, se preferisci) ^^
2) Anche a te non fa piacere essere dimenticata, vero? ^^
Adesso ti spiego una cosa:
Non è bello entrare e vedere che un watcher segue chi vuole, dopo averti aggiunto.
E' difficile che io vada a cercare nuove persone (per capirlo, prima dovresti sapere i problemi che ho ^^). Prima ci penso bene, e se decido di seguire, poi lo faccio... in particolare se sono interessato a cosa viene messo. Non cerco mai nessuno per amicizia. Quella se ci deve essere, verrà prima o poi, ma appena conosco qualcuno, il mio primo pensiero è che cosa contiene la sua gallery.
Mi sembra assurdo cercare qualcuno per motivi diversi dalle deviations, su un sito dove si parla di arte. Mi sembra mancare di rispetto, se dico bugie a qualcuno, fargli credere cose che non penso... se qualcuno mi cerca ma a me non piace, non dò watch. Se aggiungo qualcuno, non pretendo che dia il watch. Non cerco fama, ma persone a cui piace cosa faccio^^
Ho parlato di tutto questo, ma non me ne interesso più di tanto, quando è così rimuovo e basta^^ Prima ci stavo male, ora ho imparato a restituire la "gentilezza"^^
Ma aggiungere e poi non seguire, venire ogni tanto a dire che sono incapace e non si spiegano tutte quelle visite, oppure dopo anni e anni dire sempre "carino^^", "carino^^", "carino^^" (ti giuro, sempre quel commento), mi dà fastidio, perché sarebbe meglio rimanere a casa nostra, come faccio io quando trovo deviations che non mi piacciono, non credi?
Se ho messo tutte quelle emoticon è per farti capire che non ti serbo rancore^^ Chi è onesto con me trova un watcher (e a volte un amico) fedele tutta la vita, ma chi non lo fa, trova un essere un po' spietato. Purtroppo non sono molto tollerante, perché credo moltissimo in quello che ti ho spiegato, cioè onestà e orgoglio ^^
Spero di essermi spiegato, e aver scritto comprensibile. Ora vado a letto, che è tardi "
Translation:
"Problems exst because you don't know how to manage things how you're supposed to. Or maybe you don't care.
First I'll reply:
1)But to favorite and comment for those you want yes.(so in other words he's envious cuz I had time to fav other people's works but not his? why fav something if you're not interested in it?) Or in this case maybe in the past, doesn't change much. I'm telling you this because I'm writing to you but what I think goes for everybody else, I'm fair(or impartial if you prefer it)
2)Not even you like to be forgotten right? ^^
Now I'll explain something:
(god he's full of bull#$%^)
It's not pretty to enter and see that one watcher follows whoever he wants(lol wut? than what is he supposed to d? follow who you want?) after he added you. It's hard for me to go and look for new people(to understand first you need to know the problems that I have). First I think carefully and if I decide to follow , then I do it...particularly if I'm interested in what will be post("vienne messo" an expression I know what it refers to but dunno if I translated it perfectly). I never look for someone for friendship. That if it has to be, it will come after (or something like that) but when I first meet someone my first attention goes to his gallery.
It seems absurd to me looking for someone for reasons other than his deviations on a site where you talk about art.It seems to me to be lack of respect(this being true I have nothing against what he said here) If I'm telling lies to someone, making him believe things that I don't actually think...if someone looks for me(finds me) but I don't like it/him/his works/w/e I don't watch him.(correct) If I add someone, I don't pretend to give the watch...I don't look for fame but people who like what I do.(the difference between me and him is that I look for people who's art I like not who to like my art
I talked about all dis but it doesn't interest me that much (o rly? seems to me like not that much is actually a very much)when it's like this I just remove and end of story. At first I was sad ("stavo male" literally means "was sick" XD from what I remember)now I've learned to return the "kindness" (no shit talking with acid words when I was so polite in my comments >except the note where I called him hypocrite and egoistic XD)
But adding and then not following, coming every now and then and saying that I'm incapable (who did? he's actually saying this about me? LAME! then he hides my reply and blocks me so I can't defend myself? and because he knows that HE LIED wtf?!?!) and all those visits/pageviews aren't explained, otherwise after years and years always saying "cute" "cute">>I swear to you always the same comment<<(well if you'll look at my comments on his deviations the ones from last year cuz that's when I stopped commenting you'll see that has nothing to do with me), tires me,because it would be better to remain in our houses, how I proceed when I find deviations that I dislike , don't you think?
If I added all those emote-icons it's because I want to show you I don't keep a grudge against you (no it's more like you're sarcastic and like to spread venom with the emotes) who's honest with me gets a watcher and sometimes a friend , faithful(bull%$&#) for the rest of their lives, but who's not honest , finds a being a bit ruthless. Unfortunately I'm not too tolerant because I believe a lot in that which I explained to you that is honesty (BULLSHIT! why did you hid my last comment then you prick!) and pride.
I hope I explained myself and wrote so that you can understand(comprehensible...comprehend whatever)now I'm going to bed cuz it's late.
God it pisses me off to have to translate things , when I read them I understand directly but if I have to translate the words barely come in mind. Anyway moving on.
What pisses me off most is that he hid my next reply ...why? he was afraid people would see and agree with me
also pisses me off because I forgot what I wrote mostly >_> hope I can remember by re reading his reply.
I told him something like I faved yes but barely commented on my own journal replies didn't have time to comment on works and others' journals
And that it's true that I haven't commented on his works for a long time (like a year now) but that's because he didn't post anything that interests me and
that he is telling me about me not commenting or faving his works ? He didn't fav a single work of mine or commented I checked to make sure so I told him this and asked him , why did he watch me in
the first place if he wasn't interested in my works? He was just what he mentioned in his journals , he only cares about him getting comments on his works favs critiques watchers etc, he's egoistic and
doesn't care about others but himself.
Said some other things but I forgot I remember saying at the end that he explained himself very well , It gave me the opportunity to see what kind of a person
he actually is and now I'm glad that I removed him from my watch and dunno what other things.
then he replied in english :
"Allora rispondo in inglese, se riesco
Why i didn't answer:
I think it is horrible to make lists of your preferred friends, excluding me, when i was always kind and polite.(me:WHEN??? WHEN? YOU NEVER COMMENTED!!! YOU NEVER TALKED!)
In my opinion being honest means to add everyone or nobody.(me:being onest means telling the truth!bozo!)
That's why i stopped to follow you.(me:lol)
If you was interested on mantaining friendship (? well, i'm exaggerated now) you had to note me to ask why. ^^ But you preferred to ignore me and then to remove me, so you didn't care so much.(me: as if you cared? you cared you lost a watcher that's all. and it pisses you off. mind you I was polite and didn't tell him I didn't like his art and that that's why I removed him but he was a jerk saying all that he said to me)
Then, if there was to feature someone, it was not me, but only your preferred friends. And now don't say i didn't feature you!!!(when did I do features????? does anyone remember me doing features on this account?and yea he featured me once if I can remember even that)
Then, i'm not interested what is you hopinion about me, i know what i am(jerk), and stats says the truth^^(here he goes with the emoteicon = venom VENOM! and I loled at this "Stats says it?!?!wtf makes me wanna show you his works XDD) When i post a drawing if it is really bad time, i reach 200-300 views, when it is good time i reach 5000 views^^ So...(me:and here he was saying that he's not here for popularity and shit dude ...grow up!)
"Stop" it is what i say now, i have enough elements to give a good example of "Category A user". "
then he blocked me.
Did anyone have the guts to read everything? xDDDDif you skip the parts that are in italian (That is if you do not know the language cuz if you do read that cuz I might have made some translation mistakes) it gets smaller xD.
If you've read it and have time please leave a comment saying what your opinion is.... I'm having a hard time agreeing with this guy
Also some of you might watch him and know who he is , please do not say his name or tell anyone about him I do not want to start a war of any sort I'm looking for an impression/opinion.